One of the hardest parts of this independent musicianry project is the fear that claws at my stomach pretty much all the time.

Some days more than others.

Definitely today.

So much so that last night when I wasn’t sleeping I was busy making a list of “what I am afraid of,” just so I made sure I had everything in one place.

Let’s leave out the whole “this indie music project will fail spectacularly,” which surprisingly isn’t on the list of things I am afraid of.  It’s on the other list, the one I made simultaneously, titled “what I am worried about.”

What am I afraid of today?

1.  That I’ve screwed up the Bar Pico show.

I’m playing a show at Bar Pico on Friday, Aug 24, with Clark Chimp, Artichoke, and The Long Holidays.  This show is getting a small amount of internet buzz (here’s the Facebook Events Page) but I don’t think the bar’s doing anything to promote it and I think part of that is my fault because today is the first day the bar will get show posters. 

And there’s no way of getting around that.  I should have given Bar Pico show posters much earlier but I did other things instead.  Also there’s a complicated project-managery critical path thing: I had to design the posters, send the design to all the bands, get their approval, do printing price-comparisons, send it to the printers, check proofs, etc. etc. etc.

But still.  They should have had the posters earlier.

2.  That my Kickstarter isn’t going to fund.

I know, because I’ve studied product launches and specifically studied Kickstarter product launches, that we are now in the plateau section of the launch.  That there is, in theory, going to be another bump of backers right before the Kickstarter closes (all you procrastinator types, who want to back but won’t do it until you absolutely have to).

But I don’t trust those kind of theories.

I want the Kickstarter to fund ahead of schedule, so I can stop worrying about it.

But the Kickstarter is in the “afraid of” column and not the “worrying about” column because I’m seriously afraid that we’ll get close and still not fund. 

We’re 77% of the way there.

Here’s where you back my Geek Girl EP Kickstarter.

3.  That I’m not spending enough time planning the Geek Girl EP Launch Concert and Documentary.

The Geek Girl EP Launch Concert is Saturday, September 1 at Comic Bug in Los Angeles.  (Here’s the Facebook Event link.)  I had an event planner on my team but I think he’s going to be less involved, and so now I’m thinking “I need to be spending more time planning this.”

And practicing the set.

And working out what I’m going to say.

And figuring out exactly how the documentary videorecording part is going to work.

And promoting the concert.

And making sure there is cake at the party. 

So that.

Maybe tomorrow I’ll tell you what’s on the “what I am worried about” list.  :)